I've started a journey. I finally reached a point in which I was uncomfortable enough to do something about my weight so I started Weight Watchers. After seeing how well my co-worker has done I figured it would work for me.
Apparently I was right because I see results on the scales. I started at 224.5 and am now at 214.2. I need to see change and I am or I get discouraged and quit.
It's also started an emotional purging. I'm releasing old regrets, old memories. people, anything that is bad for me. While this is a good thing, it's hard because those old regrets and memories had become like armor for me and to be stripping those away--well, it leaves me vulnerable, open and raw and in a state which would allow me to be easily taken advantage of so I have to stay on heightened alert which is exhausting.
It's necessary though. I've written down feelings and regrets that I need to let go and have burned them. I've done some other things to help release what I need to release. And after doing that I feel freer but have to remain vigilant so that they don't creep back in.
It's a work in progress. Hang with me through this.